soooooo today is extreme monday blues.

feeling sleepy, irritated and a little depressed all rolled into one. unsettled.

when will this unsettled feeling ever go awayyyyy. its hard to explain this, but i think it stems from being unsatisfied with my life right now.

i probably need to get a new job thats super challenging to occupy my time/ find my true calling to do something useful and meaningful in my life. its like, no matter how busy i try to occupy my time, i still feel empty.

its a serious case of fml. or i just need a new love to distract myself. but. i refuse to.

I MUST DO THIS. I MUST STAY SINGLE AND BE ALONE. CAUSE I NEED TO LEARN TO BE ALONE.

my entire teenage years has been spent being a boyfriend's girl ie i always spend my time with my boyf or his friends/ my friends. i have never been single for the past 7 years and i have forgotten how it's like to be single and live alone.

so i think my new resolution is to BE ALONE.