alone for the first time in my life since 3786495 years.

being alone feels kind of awesome and lonely at the same time, but im learning to get used to it.

although, i seriously need to turn into one of those depressed drunkards ie. crying after drinking. its soooo embarassing but it does feels good to let it out. havent even cried once since the breakup, until last night. i know right everyone must be thinking you're the one who asked for a break up so what's there to cry about. i know right! but, i still dont know if its the right thing to do.

i dont even know what i want anymore.