on a side note, last night was crazy. im a natural whore. like going on a date with one guy and then getting him to go drinking with me and then playing with a few other guys and then, kissing another one? oh and not to mention all these in front of the guy that i really like. and then drunk texting all of them at the same time when i got home? whats. wrong. with. me.

no wonder he doesnt even like me.

the only way for me to get out of this is to stop drinking. then i will stop being such a whore. but i cant, i truly cant. drinking is my one and only pleasure, its the one thing that makes me really really let loose and feel happy. even if its just for a short while.

whats. wrong. with. me.

i think i need help.