im such a fucked up.
i made A angrry. its actually not important but i feel bad.
and i got rid of S.
so its now E. hahaha. SEA down to E, who is also not very interested. so yay to me once more.
and they just told me that W doesnt want to break up with me. he doesnt want a break up at all. i think he's doing it to make me feel better. i dont know what i want but i feel so bad. hes still as self-sacrificing, still as nice. whats wrong with me. whats wron with me. why do i not want him. why why why. im trying to talk to him anyway, like peace yo. but then he's not letting me through at all. i know he'll be fine, i know he'll get through it.
sibei sian ah.
but guess what, in the midst of all this crap. im still feeling fine. im feeling alright, not depressed at all. i think im really back to normal.
have i finally made peace with myself? im quite liking this new peaceful zen stage hahaha!
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